Sunday, August 29, 2010
I'm not writing this to embarrass anyone, but I hope to encourage someone through this. Most of all, I just hope to ease my own mind, this old mamma, so that I can move ahead with what I've learned and apply it to the future with all four daughters. I also want to say that I'm quite proud of my daughter for what she has been through this weekend and for the grace with which she has handled it.
My oldest daughter has been dating the same young man since June of last year. A record for sure, as her closest previously recorded relationship was just 6th months. This one was different anyway, as she felt so strongly that he was the guy that God had chosen for her to spend her life with. He has many qualities that she felt were right for her, and she had a connection there that was obvious to everyone around them. She has stood by him through his choice of following his dream, and she's loved him, supported him, and prayed for him as he's been away.
The season changed. He ended their relationship. One would expect wailing and tears, but there was peace and contentment. There was a sense of resolve that if he isn't the one God has prepared, there must be someone wonderful out there. (Or around here? Who knows?) She walked out of that room with maturity that I should have never doubted. She ate a bite of lunch, and she started removing pictures from her wall. She counted her t-shirts to realize that she only had two that didn't have something about her supporting him on it. She decided that she could buy more t-shirts. The season changed.
For me, it's been strange because I was prepared to be supportive. I was prepared to cry with her, and I was ready to be a shoulder to cry on. What I wasn't prepared for is such an abrupt ending to such a sweet relationship, and I just wasn't prepared for how beautifully she would handle it. I'm not sure why I would expect any less, but it's been funny for me as a mom.
I believe we make choices every day that affect our future. While I think that God prepares a way for us and has a plan for us, I think that plan is more of a big picture of us serving Him. Furthermore, the choices we make lead us to different places in our lives. Sometimes, choices lead us through some unsavory places, but eventually, if we love the Lord, He brings it all together. (Romans 8:28) Sometimes the choices other people make affect our lives as well, but we can hold on to the fact that God has that big plan for us, and that should bring us such peace. None of us know what the future holds, but for those of us that know Who holds our future, it makes it okay.
So in the midst of the weird day yesterday, and the strange weekend, I have seen Christian friends pull together to encourage, and I have been amazed once again at the grace that God has shown to and through one of my children. My heart didn't even have time to ache for her, and I'm beginning to see that it doesn't need to. A part of our life has changed. We love him and wish him the best. I committed to pray for him daily when he left home, and I will honor my commitment until he's done.
I praise God for what He has taught my daughter, and I thank Him for helping her to see that no matter what, He has it all under control. I'm grateful that she holds tight to her faith and keeps her focus on Christ. I'm thankful that she has Christian friends that love her and always stick by her, some for many years through a lot of "schtuff". I also praise God for reminding me to trust Him, because He knows what is best for my kids even when it's different from what I expected.
Friday, August 27, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
I blogged about faith, and mine was tested with a horrible, no good, awful, really bad day. I was bombarded from every side with just loads of it, and at the end of the day, I was drained. Faith still standing, I felt like I had been through the gauntlet.
I blogged about love. Those around me pushed me, pulled me, threw me curve balls, and were just downright unlovely. I wanted to scream, curse, and cry, but in the end my love withstood and I survived.
Today I blog about testing. It will be a brief blog, but this acknowledges the power of who we are and what it can sometimes cause. You see, those of us who are Christians stand for something HUGE. We stand on moral ground, defending the very things that Christ stood for. This dang world we live in just doesn't like it one bit. The devil himself really hates it. In return, there are fiery arrows being flung at us from all angles sometimes, and we just have to hold up our shield of faith and deflect them as best we can.
If life is going swimmingly and you never have any problems, take a look at how you're living. Are you pushing limits for Christ? Are you standing for Him? Are you trying your best to live a positive, impactful life? Hmm... I think if you are answering "yes" to those, you can't be living a life without problems left and right.
"So", you may say, "why bother?" I bother because I prefer to serve the God of all Gods, the Lord of all the Earth, the One and Only Who saved me and has prepared a place in eternity for me, and I prefer to stand for something worthy of all my praise and glory. As the saying goes, if you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything.
I truly hope this day will be better and that I won't be tested about being tested. However, if I am, I'm sure you'll hear about it tomorrow.
This concludes the test of the Mauney emergency broadcast blog system... This was only a test.....
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
The reality of this hit me hard although I haven't seen him in many years. In fact, he probably wouldn't remember me because one of his older brothers was really the one that I was close to. It hit me hard because he's young, he's Christ-like, a good husband and daddy I'm sure, a school administrator now that has worked hard for all that he has. He's representative of many young men I know.
My main memory of him growing up is that he had to be tough to withstand the aggravation of 3 big brothers. They were all amazing young men, always a joy to be around, but they were typical brothers. As I think of him now facing this battle, I think of how tough he had to be to put up with those three brothers, and I wonder if this may be a cinch for him after what he's learned. This coupled with his strong faith and the amazing faith of his family and friends, as well as an all-powerful, loving, healing God, surely will bring a testimony that none of us can imagine right now.
The idea made me ask "why?" It made me wonder about the pain his family must be feeling. It made me think of how strong or weak my own faith is. It really caused me to question where I am in my relationships, especially my relationship with the Lord.
You see, I hear many people say, "God said He will never give me more than I can handle." God never said that!
1 Corinthians 10:13 says, "God is faithful, and He will not let you be tested beyond your strength but with your testing He will also provide the way out so that you may be able to endure it." Somehow we shortened this to the whole "God said He will never give me more than I can handle." Well, does that mean that homeless people that have to live on the street are just strong enough to handle it? What about the starving people in other countries? Has God "given" them this because they are strong enough to endure it? NO!! God doesn't put these things on us. What kind of God would do that? He doesn't GIVE us pain and grief, but He allows those things to happen in the world. The key is that God provides a way out for us. He is to be our strength during these times of weakness. Notice the part of the verse that says that He will provide a way for us to endure it. He endures it for us and with us. It's up to us really, and we in our wordly strength can't handle everything. God in His infinite wisdom and power however sure can. What we have derived from this verse and what the whole point is are two totally different things. The beginning of the verse is the key.... God is faithful.
So, as I think of my friend battling cancer, I know that although he may not be strong enough to beat it, he serves the very God that can. Don't ever think that God is giving you something that you can't handle, or that he will not give you any more than you can. What we really need to remember is, no matter what comes our way, God is faithful.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
A miracle has occurred in my life, although I'm not comfortable sharing the details at this time. Suffice is to say that God has worked a change that I put into His hands long ago, and it's just the strangest feeling. I mean, I have faith, but at times I struggle like anyone does with whether God is working on my need when I think He is. (I guess that's a wavering faith.) Sometimes I'm just caught in a moment of weakness, and I think that my situation will just always be the same.
This theory has been dashed, as last week I saw some positive changes in my life that were hoped for but still caught me off guard. (Why do we ask God for blessings and then are surprised when He gives them right to us?) It's been funny too how I've had to adjust my life around these changes. A load has been lifted from my shoulders, and I have to learn how to walk as a lighter person. I have to understand that it's not my burden any more. I've been reminded that I have help. Instead of being a stronger woman, I have now become a weaker one with a stronger faith.
It's truly a miracle, and I knew that God was still in the miracle business. Biblically, the first recorded miracle was John 2:1 - 11 when Jesus turned the water into wine at the wedding feast. The last recorded miracle is maybe Luke 22:51 when he replaces the ear of one of the arresting officers that had come to take Him away. Some would argue more miracles recorded past that, just according to how you look at it I'm sure. My argument is that just because Jesus ascended into Heaven, the miracles didn't stop.
As far as physical miracles, I've seen many in my own family. My brother was healed of what the doctors were sure was cancer. My uncle, after weeks of hospitalization, was able to recover and continue to serve the Lord. My children are all alive and well, even though the last two were born two months prematurely and fought for their lives. I could go on and on if I really thought about it I'm sure, and those are just the physical healing miracles!
The latest miracle in my life isn't physical, even though I am now suddenly more determined to be physically fit. God works His spiritual miracles in lives all around us. Most times, it's the spiritual miracles that we don't see in other people, but they are the most profound miracles of all. Take it from me... God is still in the miracle business.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010